Who Knew!

I have a little dilemma, of course it's work related. There is a new guy in my department and he is just gorgeous to me. The problem is he is my direct report supervisor. This screams "what the heck are you thinking!", but hey sometimes things just happen that are not under you control. He is the complete opposite of some of things I had planned for my ideal guy: tall, handsome, must have hair, great sense of humor, honest, have a job, takes care of himself, smart, outgoing, caring and must be black. Well, he matched all but two. He is bald and he is white. Yup, funny how life just wants to throw you a curveball when you don't want it!

The fact that he is white doesn't bother me, but the bald thing.... Sure he is a great guy at work and he has a tendency to bug the heck out of me when he yells my name over the wall to ask a question and stops by me desk to say crazy things. I can't help it that I find something sexy about him. Besides the fact that he is my supervisor, there is the whole physical looks thing. He is fit and in shape, while I am over weight struggling to lose it and have a few other attributes that may turn a guy away. Wow, I'm way honest in the blog today which is very scary for me.

I'm not kidding that this man has my panties all wet. Not to mention that some of my peers are noticing the interaction between us. Some are saying that he is interested in me and they say that it was from the first day he started! Now, I have moral standards and I would never cross that line of sleeping with the boss, but he could be the one who has me tossing that out the window. He is planning on doing bi-weekly statuses. Us behind closed doors... Lord, help me!Anyway, maybe this will be good for my career, not in that way, but for me to get off my butt and look for a new job. Oh, I have one more kicker here, he is 7 years younder then me.

Dilemma indeed!

Life in Peril

Yup! You hit 40 and all of a sudden, you start worring about your life. I'm not talking about dying, but worring if you did all the things that you wanted to do before you get too old to do them. When I look at my life so far, I see a lot things still on my to do list in life. Sorry, but it's too many to list in this short blog entry.
I do have a few things that should be completed by this time next year: taking a vacation outside of MN, going to a football game and putting a more positive expression on my face when walking around town. Yes, the last item is correct. Yesterday, I was walking around downtown after work making my stops to pick up things for my mom and 3 people told me to cheer up it not or wasn't that bad. Man, I guess my brother was right that I walk around with a mean face. I'm not mean, I just don't see the need to walk around with a smile plastered on my face. That would scare a lot of people if I did that. Hello crazy lady in downtown Minneapolis smiling like she's lost her mind, dial 911 quick!
Ok, I need to get back to ticket hunting, but I have a final word.
CNN Planet In Peril Series was absolutely wonderful! I can't wait to get the DVD and see all the out-takes. The one on the web that shows Anderson cussing up a storm on top of the ice cliff in Greenland is priceless. That man has such a potty mouth!

Do Everything Right, But.....

You can walk on the straight line all your life, but something out of no way can put a huge whole in your plans. I just learned from my cousin that she had surgery. Of course, this comes as a complete surprise, as I was calling her to wish her a happy birthday. Instead I was the one surprised. My cousin, who at one point in my life was more a sister to me then a cousin told me that she had a complete hysterectomy. I was in shock and she had to repeat to me. My mind instantly started going over memories from years pasted and I remembered that her monthly cycles were always heavy and she would be in more pain then normal, but never knew it would lead to this. I snapped myself out of the blind sidedness and asked her if it was due to fibroids and she said yes. The reason why I said fibroids and not cancer is because I have them. My fibroids are small and are not a problem for me. I never knew that they could lead to a hysterectomy. The next question out my mouth was; “The surgery necessary?" She says yes and them tells me that she has had 2 other surgeries for problematic fibroids. Again, I'm floored to learn this. I know my family can be closed mouthed on a lot of things, but I never thought we would keep having major surgery a secret! My cousin goes on to tell the whole ordeal that she’s had over growing fibroids and that the surgery she had on August 20th was much needed as the fibroids were pushing against other major organs and that she wanted to stop taking pain pills that she has been on for over 10 years. You could pluck every hair off my body and I would not have felt a thing as she was telling me the story. My heart and love goes out to her, as I know that she really, really wanted to have a baby and now she can never have one of her own. She says that she is working on coming to terms with that reality. Here I am silently worrying about my own biological clock ticking away while hers has just been snatched from her. My cousin is seeking help in dealing with this by talking with a psychiatrist weekly which is great, but her heart has a hole that will never be filled. I know people say that you can adopt, but it's not the same as having a child that is a part of you.

Long Time No See...

Well, I has been almost 7 months since I wrote on this blog site. It feels funny. I've been doing things, but haven't bothered to write about them. That would be my fear of communicating with other humans kicking in.

Hum... What has happened. First off, I decided to pamper myself again. I'm treating myself to bi-weekly visits to the hair salon. Man it feels good to have someone else do all the work. And the plus side to this is that I'm out of the salon in under two hours. trust me, this is a big deal. I had stop going to the hair salon, because it would take four hours just to get a wash, condition and styled. I would be the first appointment, yet leave way later! I was too through with that. So, I've been doing my own hair for 7+ years. I'm so happy about this salon, it runs like a well oiled engine! I tried something else to, I went and did highlights in my hair. It really looks gorgeous! I have gotten many comps on it.

Next Up! I got new glasses and they look wonderful. I also, got contacts, but I'm still in the training stage. The right eye astigmatism is worst and the soft contact lenses may by out if the next go around of testing doesn't work. I pray it does. Who know that vanity would be an issue now in this stage of my life.

My birthday gift to myself this year was... a treadmill! Yup, I saved up my own money to get it. I didn't want to hear boo from anyone that they did this and that for me. I can feel proud all by myself. The bad news is that I injured my back after just using it for a week. That was not fun at all. It took me 10 minutes to get out of bed just to go to the bathroom. I later learned that this is a popular thing for people new to the tread world. I'm still recovering. I've used the thing twice since getting hurt, but I plan on jumping back on it this coming week on a regular basis.

What didn't happen this year for me could take a while, but I know how to condense things up. I have not found my true love. I have joined the online world of dating and nothing from it yet. I have not given up! For the real world meet and greet, that isn't working either. I get the bums that others kick to the curb. My girl friends all live out of the way and I don't drive, so it makes it hard to hang out with people I trust to help me look for a mate. I will need to lose weight or decide to be by myself. I will keep looking, until my mind and heart has had enough.

I didn't go back to school, my fear again kicks in about being too old for this and not feeling that I'm smart enough to do the whole school thing again. But the 4 year degree looks so good right now. The only problem is, that there are a lot and I do mean a lot of young college kids out there and big businesses want them. My age could and would be a big factor. Not to mention the interviewing and communicating training classes at work I would need. There are more issues here, but I'll write about them another day.

There are a few more pluses here, I've gained a friend on my MySpace site. This person is part of the AC Fan world. I need to update my page on that site. I hate to look bad to the new friends.

Last but not least, I'm always happy to see this man Monday - Friday (when he is in the office)

he turned 40 this year as did I.

Snow Day!

Hello Everyone! Yes, right now I'm praying for a snow day. We are gettin hit right now with the possibility of 18" of wet snow. Oh, how this reminds me of my childhood. I remember sitting by the tv or radio waiting to hear news that schools would be closed, well I'm hoping that the snow is bad enough for the state officials to issue a stay at home alert. Yup, just like a school age child, I'm sitting by the tv and radio just waiting for two little words; "Stay Home!". You're never too old to act like a kid again, never!!! Did anyone get the chance to view the special on AC360 tonight? What was Anderson thinking about when he put on the blue and green stripe tie?? If anyone crosses that man's path, please tell him to ditch that tie.

The story was captivating as always. Nice job to Tom Foreman for putting it together.

One Lucky Sloth!!!

Yes, it has been a long time since my last entry, but hey it's been really cold the last few weeks. Okay BTW! I really enjoyed the little time we got to see Anderson this week. I'm still laughing about Tuesday's show where Anderson was jumping away from a little frog. I have a feeling that he will be hearing about that one for a while. On Friday's show Anderson was holding a three toed sloth. I tell that little fella held on to Anderson with it's dear life. I'm sure that the sloth only wanted to hear Anderson's heart beat. P.S. The pic thanks goes to AllThingsAnderson. I must add that Jeff and Anderson look really HOT down in the jungle!!! Per Jeff they have 6 more months of this, may God help us all.

Snarky Andy!

First off I know that this is late, but I just had to post my version of it. On December 21st, our lovely Andy did a snarky piece about the dumb a** feud between Rosie O'Donnell and "The Don" as in Mr. Trump. I remember being on the phone and just busted out laughing, when I looked up to see Anderson snacking away on the movie food. All of which just happen to be my favorites. The person was I talking to on the phone was dying from laughter too and before I knew it, we had a four way call going, just because Cooper had to go and say; "Oh, no he didn't!" Which is a primary phase used by many black women today when we hear stuff that's just a little bit too far fetched or something you can’t believe is happening. As a matter of fact I just used that phase after hearing on the local news that we are under a winter storm warning. Yes, the dream is over that we could have an actual pleasant winter. Sorry to all the snow lovers out there, but I can't stand to jump over huge mounds of snow for 3 to 4 months and NO, I will not move!!!